||[Dec. 13th, 2006|04:00 am]
I don't miss mormonism, misfit mormonism or any aspect of that existence. At all.|
went to some church social events through the month of december and it was good food, but the same out of place feeling. its not that i have a problem with the doctrine, or some random member has offended me - no i have problem with finding a validating reason to continue attending meetings and gatherings where i do not feel comfortable with the people in attendance. misfit mormon was a temporary fix for this, but the fact is with misfit mormon, you still are a mormon. i believe in God, but get sick of hearing Jesus this and Jesus that consistently. i believe in myself now. maybe that is not valid enough for the many, but it is valid for me at this point.
i don't care to engage in doctrinal discussions on the Church on this matter or to be told i am going to hell. no, i just want some understanding and place with meaning beyond mormonism.
still don't drink or smoke. i even pay tithing as a means of insurance if i get in a bind. imagine my core values will be the same. however, i can see that i don't need the Church to give me an existence. i already found that meaning outside the pews.